My mother sent me my photo album some while ago. I showed it to a few friends, and my new girlfriend. It contains, amongst other photos, numerous pre-surgery infant pictures - showing me with a cleft lip. I've always expected kind of a mixed reaction if I were to show those to other people, some kind of "cute, but what's with your lip?"
All everybody has seen thus far is a cute baby boy. They don't see the lip.
It's not like it's not there. It's big. But they all see a baby with big blue eyes, puffy cheeks, tiny little fists, all that. My girlfriend even said it's shaped like a heart, and thought it looked cute.
I've always seen it as a deformity. I was shocked when she said that. I couldn't react; I didn't know how. I was seeing MYSELF in an entirely new light. This thing that I had always thought I overcame and struggled through was suddenly...so different. Not something to overcome anymore.
I don't really know how to deal with feeling okay about myself.
TRH
1 comment:
There's nothing negative to deal with feeling good about yourself, Ted. Just take it in stride and enjoy it, that's about all you really can and should do. :p
By the way, if you ever want to check out my own blog, you can find it here:
http://k0ld-x.livejournal.com/
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